I don’t know how I feel
I’m not sure if I’m down or not. Here lately I’ve been awake all night and sleep all day. There is something peaceful about the night; maybe it’s the lack of expectations and no people are around, I don’t know. What concerns me is my nightly activities that are a bit self destructive.
I think I do it so I can get out or maybe I just want to convince myself that I’m ok. Now I have to fix myself and get my sleep schedule back on track which is one of the most difficult projects to take on. I need some time for self reflection to figure out what it is that I need at this moment. It may be that I just need a friend but have alienated myself from other.